chiilll

I've had it with waiting...I have this rule that I will refrain from socializing with people until I get my clearance from my previous work since I want to end that chapter in my life and I want to start a new chapter totally in tabula rasa (clean slate). Unfortunately, I have been waiting for a month, and it doesn't seem to end so, the hell with that rule, my world should not stop just because of it (thanks for the kind words friends).

I was also motivated since I read a few chapters of Malcolm Gladwell's Tipping Point and a blog entry of my favorite Bo Sanchez (click here)

I have always resorted to alone time whenever I feel down. Unlike some people who party, drink or watch a movie or do something to get their mind off things, I choose to stare at nothingness. I stare and stare and think and think until I solve the problem coz I don't want to bother people about my depression and vice versa (which probably explains my "I can survive alone" attitude -- I've had people in my life not worthy enough of my trust...but that's another story, right).

After a thousand times of wall staring, I realized that I'd rather waste my energy and time with people no matter how imperfect they are...coz that should be the way to go. :D

so here's my tentative sked for the month aside from painting...


chiilll time

May 9 or 10?- Mother's day
May 14 - Bananz birthday
May 15 - Pahiyas
May 16 - weighing between Bataan outreach or European thingie or dinner with my House buddies
May 23 - MG Day
May ?= whenever I feel like it - The Spa