what now?

what do you know, I'm awake again and its 4am...I'm becoming a graveyard person... anyhow... random thoughts

Finally, my last focus story is out...so I don't have anything more to think about, but I have yet to submit my requirements for clearance later...if I get up early enough...what a huge relief! Thank You Lord!

My main worry at the moment is what now?

I haven't really gotten to the part of looking for the next job since I'm still focused on completing my requirements from my previous work. My logic was I don't want to enter something new when I'm still not finished from my previous work, the same reason why I didn't bother looking for a job despite knowing that I would leave soon. It's just surreal since I give all my time to what I'm doing that it won't make sense and its too exhausting. When I entered my previous company, my boss asked one thing from me, commitment to my work and I did just that. When you are committed, you do not look around, prancing about for new opportunities, you stick to what you have until you get it done. People would have wanted me to be pirated by other companies or look for other options while idling away, and I understand that for practicality... but I need a clean slate, not a quick getaway.


What now?

Now that i'm almost out... I'm actually much more confused but I have this vague career path in my head.

Not to mention the hard time of facing people nowadays answering perennial post resignation questions like "where are you working now?" or "what's new?". I do appreciate the concern but sometimes, it gets too overwhelming, so please understand that this is sort of a hibernation mode for me...its never easy to think about your life plan let alone be exposed to the same old environment when you want to break out of it.

I also have bullet points to guide me.

*A five-day, 8-hour job - Having flexible time before was a big advantage but I figured, It's not really as liberating as I managed it. I just want to have that feeling that when I step out of the office I am no longer working like everybody else. And also I want to go home at peace without traumatizing calls and texts.
* A Saturday and a Sunday off - I want to study and spend time with my family during weekends where I am not only physically but also emotionally and mentally around.
* non-working holidays - I want to experience long weekends, every bit of it, even though I don't get paid double.
* a salary I can live with - fair enough to still be able to support my getaways and my hobbies and for spoiling people once in a while.
* perks and benefits - I hope its as generous as my previous job.
* an environment I can grow in and learn more and I get to meet all kinds of people.
* won't give me much "heartburn" - after learning that I have MVP, I value my health more already coz I haven't done much daredevil acts for this lifetime, I want to and I have to be healthy for that.

With that, here's my plan:

I want to enter foreign service ever since college and I'm trying to get into that first...I still don't know if I'm suited for it and if it still makes sense going for it after failing FSO last year, but I do hope like surprisingly having been a news writer despite the much needed background, I'll be able to ride that "wave" soon (banking too much on confidence and willpower here).

Plan B is advertising, C is anything art related. Plan D is still media but more on the lighter side of life: arts and travel.

However, as much as possible, I'm gonna steer clear from any work that would require me to write to my wits' end, not until I get my groove back coz I seriously drained all my brain cells the last time.

While I'm looking for my potential job I'll stay in hopefully more than a year, I'm thinking of studying any language, driving, and photography while having a sideline to pay for my bills and for my parents' comfort. If I'm lucky enough, I'd probably get into a business.

I vowed to repair my life until I'm 25 and that's two years from now. I really can't do a long term thing coz I'm such a spontaneous person, but hopefully, my outright decisions once in a while would still get me to where I want to be a few years from now. By then I should be in a sort of "dream job" and I should have caused a step up for most of my passions.

Also next year, my mom's going to retire already so I want to put up a business with her and my dad so they'll both have something worthwhile to do, alongside leisure hopefully.

A sort of a long term would probably this: I remembered my sister said that a person should have made his or her first million before hitting 30 years old, otherwise, he or she won't make a million for the rest of his or her life anymore. I know for some that's stupid but I'm also factoring that in... Before thirty I should have made a million pesos or whatever currency, a million smiles, a million good deeds and a million experiences.

But above all, I leave everything to God and I really pray that my dreams make sense and that He would agree that it is the right thing for me. Of course I understand that along the way, things will change and I may or may not get the life I'm trying to shape...However, whatever He thinks is right, He will give and I trust Him enough for that. I'll get there... (and you too, if you share the same principle)
So Lord, lead me wherever You feel is right.

There's really a whole new and big world out there...and I can't wait to get out again. "Thoughts to Things" mode forever! :D