Risks

Read this with Never Say Never on the background (just for kicks)

You are protected. But if you don’t take risks, God will retreat and become only a subject of philosophical speculation. - Coelho's quote of the week

Like many other days, I discussed about love and risks yesterday with a friend. I told her that I think I've already had a fair dose of love in my life that whatever comes would just be a product of luck. And like other people, she told me that I was just afraid.

I never really see my numbness as fear. Maybe I'm a good liar or maybe just maybe, I am really a robot.

But maybe, turning away from love and pretending to be busy is a fear, I might have brainwashed myself so effectively.

As an example, I told her I never really felt alive as a person when I left something recently. It was like the biggest victory I've done and I felt so sure but unsure at the same time. I remember crying because I cannot explain how I feel and that the only sure thing I know I have to do is to just give it up.

Maybe that's how we should really live, just feeling and knowing that at the end of the day, you'll be fine despite the uncertainty. I think if God had to advise us if we are trapped in a ravine with a murderer in front of us and the deep uncertainty at the back...He'll tell us to jump rather than face death and not knowing what's really out there.

(I might not be making any sense, I still have that killer headache...darn)

Thank You Lord for teaching me the true meaning of risk...and to Mr. Coelho too. I'm gonna try so hard to apply it in my lovelife, maybe just maybe I might need more experience.haha

The Fray - Never Say Never Acoustic Performance